Timmy's re-eval at Fraser

Timmy had his re-evaluation at Fraser http://fraser.org/ on May 14th. This is where he attends day treatment program everyday. His first eval was 2 years ago in June. Dennis took him then for the 3 hour eval while I was back East with Lexi attending my Grandmothers memorial service. It was then that I learned over the phone what his diagnosis was--PDD-NOS

Pervasive Developmental Disorder Not Otherwise Specified. This diagnosis is in the Autism Spectrum. Here is where is falls on the spectrum.

Autism --------------------PDD-NOS-------------------- Aspergers

Happy 6th Birthday Lexi

Timmy's end of year program

Today was Timmy's end of year program. He has been at this school for two years in the Special Ed program. His teachers would like to integrate him next year into a regular preschool.

Mother's Day Flowers

Thank You Karen for the Mother's Day flowers!!

Mother's Day

This mother's day was different for me. I was concerned at how my mood would be. Depressed, lonely, irritated, angry, frustrated. I have only enjoyed mother's day to tell my own mother and Grandmother "Happy Mother's Day" . I have never enjoyed Mother's Day for me. A spotlight put on me as a mother of children with special needs. I do not enjoy motherhood. It is hard, stressful and exhausting. No words can express the love I have for my children. I am doing all I can to get the best services for them. Everyday is 2 steps forward, 2backwards, then 1 step forward. This weekend I feel God's grace covering me like a blanket. In the midst of screaming tantrums it is hard to hear God's voice or feel His presence. But what I do feel today is His Grace. His Word says "For my grace is sufficient for you".

Last night after the kids went to bed, Dennis was still working on the brakes of his car(trying to save some$). I was sitting on the couch realizing that for dinner Timmy ate 1 gluten free chicken nugget, french fries and matchstick carrots. I sat there with such peace that God is answering prayers. Six months ago he would have starved before eating it.(he started a new feeding clinic in Sept 07'). This time he had his usual tantrum, but after talking him through it and telling him "you can do it". He did eat! Even Lexi has been encouraging him saying"come on Timmy I'll eat one with you".

So, Dennis comes in last pm and says"I'm taking the car for a test drive". 20 minutes later he comes home with a Dairy Queen ice cream cake (dad would be proud).
This morning, I asked Timmy what day it is he said "Mother's day, Happy mother's day mommy". Lexi also was excited giving lots of hugs.

To my mom

" Happy Mothers Day"

I love you and miss you